Uh Huh Uh Huh Uh Huh!

Yep, makes no sense and I don't care. I am tired of trying to make sense when I feel so yucky. My CT scan showed nothing and I am terrified of what has yet to be found. I see the surgeon next Wednesday and I am afraid that she will say the hole is so small it is not worth repairing. I also fear that this "hernia" is not the cause of the rest of my health issues and that I am more sick than I think. I try not to overreact, but I can't help but fear the worst. I spoke to my family doctor's nurse yesterday and she seemed concerned that the hernia is not really capable of causing my other problems. She even mentioned "colonoscopy"! *shuddering* I really don't want to get that done, but if it figures out the problem, then let's go. I guess I am just worried that it's going to be bad and I worry more about my mortality lately. Does that seem stupid? To worry about dying when you've got nothing concrete to worry about yet? John would think I am overreacting, so I don't really talk to him about it. I should, I know. But I don't want him to worry too, and I can be pretty convinvcing when I think something is wrong. Ok, enough is enough. I need to go research more symptoms. Feed the fire, right?

Awesome family

This is why I love my husband. He is the world's best father. He absolutely hates this book, but Corbin loves it, so they read it. Over and over again. As many times as he wants. He gets up at 4:30am to get ready for work and is home around 4pm. From the time he walks in the door, till they go to bed, John is super Dad! He feeds Aeva-Grace while I start dinner, all the while entertaining Corbin, a little boy who idolizes his Daddy and can't wait till he comes home. They all run and play and make Rosie nuts. They read and watch Dr Phil, and by dinner time everyone has the giggles. Sometimes I stand in the doorway, quietly, and just watch them. He is so natural with both kids. Some men are just born fathers. John is one of them.

Tonight, John and I switched off at bedtime and I took Corbin, he took Aeva-Grace. It was nice to trade. We try to switch kids at bedtime a couple of times a week, when he works days. When he works afternoons, I do both by myself. After Corbin's storytime tonight, we cuddled on his bed for a bit, practising his new words. Then Corbin pointed to me and said "pretty". I thought I was going to cry. I asked, "you think Mommy is pretty?" He touches my cheek and whispers, "yeah, pretty Mom" I almost lost it. It's moments like that everything makes sense and the world is right. I love my family!

Birthday shopping and temper tantrums

Ok, so Corbin is tantruming as I type. I'd say it's funny to watch, cause usually it is, but he's been going for an hour, and frankly, I've had enough. He has hit the terrible two wall hard and fast and he's still got 2 1/2 weeks to go! We picked out his birthday gift today. My mom, sister, aunt and unlce are going in with us to get him a jungle gym thingie for the backyard. It's pretty cool looking and I think he and Aeva-Grace will be able to enjoy it for some time. I also went for my bloodwork today so I can get my CT scan booked prior to my surgery. I am hoping that the surgery can be done later in the summer, but not so late that I will still be recovering for our anniversary in September. We are hoping to go away this year someplace all inclusive and hot, kinda like the honeymoon we never had.

The Shower

Today was Sonya's shower. It was at Peggy's and I really thought it would be a nice afternoon. Was I ever wrong. Same crusty people they were in high school...the other guests that is. Sonya and Peggy and Carol were nice like they have always been, but everyone else was so rude. They felt sorry for me for being a SAHM, and implied that my life must suck because I never went to university. I felt like the one person at the party who didn't belong. It was a horrible afternoon and I had to make an excuse for John to come and get me. At least when I got home, Corbin wanted me to read him like 10 books and kept giving me big hugs. He is such an intuitive little boy and alwasy knows how to cheer me up.

Wow! I have been so lazy with this blog!

Ok, so it has been how many months since I last posted here? Ummmmm....yeah, ok, so here I go. Aeva-Grace is now 6 1/2 months old. She is an absolute delight to be with and is an extremely happy baby. Corbin will be 2 years old this month! I can't believe how the time has flown by. I can remember sitting in my room after giving birth, watching him sleep....and now I go into his room at night and I can't believe how much he has grown. He is very much a rough and tumble little boy! I think he gets his enthusiasm and excitement from his Daddy. I am still in the process of losing weight. Down another 1/2 lb today. WHOO HOO!