Such a good wife...

I am really playing the role of good wife/mother this weekend. I'm not really sure what the deal is yet, but I have been really in the mood to clean and bake. It's a little "June Cleaver"esque, but hey, why not? So I've baked 3 different kids of cookies, a loaf of banana bread, a loaf of French bread, and a loaf of dark rye bread. I have almost finished cleaning my bedroom, closet included, and I have cleaned out and reorganized my pantry and kitchen. Really all that is left is the play room. I think maybe this overwhelming urge to be a good homemaker stems from the fact that shortly, this really will be my job. If, I say if but I should say when, be positive right?, I get some children enrolled in my home daycare, this will be my day to day. Cooking, cleaning, and playing. I know I should be excited, but I am terrified. What if the kids hate me? What if I hate them? What if we never get out of this financial hell that we are in? I am hopeful, I want to be confident but I'm not quite there yet, that this week I will have at least one child enrolled. Please keep your fingers crossed for me. I have to quit my job of ten years this week with technically nothing to fall back on, no safety net. I hope that something, someone will catch me......